Tuesday, June 5, 2012

I'm BACK!!!!!!

One morning, about a month ago, I woke up and immediately it hit me, "Dammit!  I didn't blog yesterday!"  And then the internal dialogue with my Inner Mean Girl, whom I call Catty Patty, (for more info about Inner Mean Girls check out this previous post) began...

Catty Patty:  "Yo, Nimrod...  You said you were going to post a blog EVERY day in 2012!"

Me:  "I know, but I forgot!"

Catty Patty:  "You shouldn't have forgotten!  You promised yourself that you would do 366 posts this year."

Me:  "I know, I did - but really, I simply forgot!"

Catty Patty:  "If you were truly committed to this, you wouldn't have forgotten.  This is just another fine example of you not following through with what you say you are going to do."

Me:  <sigh>

Catty Patty:  "It's just like losing weight, and the half marathon...You said you were going to do those too...AND, last time I checked neither has happened!"

Me:  "But, I am human.  I just forgot to blog...is it really that big of a deal?"

Catty Patty:  "If breaking a promise to yourself AGAIN, is not a big deal...then I guess you are right..."

Me:  <sigh>  "I wish I wouldn't have forgotten."

Catty Patty:  "Well, you forgot.  You FAILED.  Again.  Whatever.  I give up."  <guilt and shame induced>

Me:  <shrinking>  "I suppose you are right..."

Ridiculous, right?  I mean, seriously, one little blog post, and then <BAM> I deem myself a colossal failure! 

And, worse yet, I started to believe, that maybe I was...

PLUS, I thought I knew better than to allow my negative self talk take over. 

Yet, it happened.  And, to my dismay, I even watched it happen... All the time, (mostly) knowing that, me beating myself up about one missed blog post, was not deserving of the low blows, sucker punches, and mean jabs I was giving myself.

I guess my Inner Mean Girl, won that one.  ...For about a month.

But now I am back!
And, that feels soooooo good!

p.s.  In scheme of life, one month, is simply a blip.

p.s.s.  A blip I can learn and grow from  :) !

1 comment:

  1. YAY Kim!! Welcome back and I've missed you! A wise woman once told me, "No bad days, just a bad moment." XOXO