According to Yahoo Thesaurus Average means...
"Being of no special quality or type: common, commonplace, cut-and-dried, formulaic, garden, garden-variety, indifferent, mediocre, ordinary, plain, routine, run-of-the-mill, standard, stock, undistinguished, unexceptional, unremarkable."
When I was growing up I seemed, well, average.
- I graduated smack-dab in the middle of my graduating class - a solid C or C+ student.
- I wasn't popular - but I had friends and was likable enough.
- I didn't excel at anything in particular...I tried out for track, but instead of running, I was asked to be the team manager. I was on flagline, but not a captain. I played the musical instruments, but was in concert band, not symphonic.
- I wasn't in honors classes - but I did not have to take remedial courses... (I could go on...)
So, I guess, for now, I'll just take the time to live in and experience this place - the space between the realization of a flawed definition of self and the revealing of a new me.