Sunday, March 18, 2012
Day 78 - Gently lean into it.
So, I know that it is time to make a change.
I've been here before. Many times. And, unfortunately, it feels kind of hopeless. That, is never a good feeling. And typically at this point, I do one of two things - either I give up (before I even start) and do nothing, or I try to tackle it head on and make a plan, filled with strict rules, crazy guidelines, and unrealistic expectations. Neither works. Both leave me feeling defeated and unsuccessful.
So, I know I need to first change my mindset, thoughts, and beliefs about this issue. Because, these negative feelings I have right now is a guarantee of failure.
I am not sure I know how to change my mindset, thoughts and beliefs about this topic...it feels so ingrained into who I am.
But, I have done it before, for other issues. And, once I wrap my brain (and heart) around a new way of living and thinking and being - it feels easier.
So I know I can do this! ...Right?
Truth be told, right now, I am not sure. I am feeling vulnerable and insecure and, well, scared. But I think that instead of giving up, or tackling head on, I need to gently lean into it.
Yep, maybe I need to lean into and feel my vulnerabilities, insecurities, and fears.
Wish me luck.
Posted by Kim Dettmer at 4:46 PM